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#440082 · 22 Apr 2004, 20:03 · · პროფილი · პირადი მიმოწერა · ჩატი
werili
axla Ramea da varskvlavebi zecas WorfliviT ayria Sublze...
me magidasTan vzivar Zvirfaso, da Cems win sufTa qaRaldebs vumzer. awmyo, warsuli da momavali damdgaran Cemi fiqrebis zRurblze.
Zalian mSvid da idumal Rames CasZinebia atmis mklavebze... TavSi trialebs aTasi kiTxva da yvela Tavis pasuxs daeZebs.
ar Semxvedrixar, ar minaxixar, albaT iqneba aTasi weli, aTasi weli iqneb cotaa, an iqneb aris Zalian bevri. me axla mxolod sizmarSi maxsovs Seni lamazi Tvalebis feri.
es yvelaferi adre daiwyo, adre, Zalian, Zalian adre, roca Tebervlis msusxavi qari exeTqeboda gaToSil Wadrebs, ros cxovrebidan Sen Wridi dReebs, viT reJisori firidan Wrides filmisTvis yovlad uvargis kadrebs. imdenad axlos movedi SenTan, rom usasrulod aRmovCndi Sori, mere viRacam SeTxza raRaca, Senc kargad ici, me rom ar giTxra, rogor vrceldeba qalaqSi Wori!
...gaxsovs?- cisferi xeobis gaswvriv mzera SveliviT morboda Sensken da mowmendili ivnisis zeca irekleboda mdinaris fskerze...
quCaSi iyo imdeni xalxi, meCveneboda, rom im saRamos sadRac garboda damfrTxali quCa... Cven mivdiodiT. me Sevagebe abaziani quCis kuTxeSi maTxovris muWas.
...gaxsovs? – oTaxSi im gazafxulze Zalian wiTlad hyvaoda balba, Sen daiRale im balbis cqeriT, Sen saerTodac gadaiRale da gamecale, me ki sul SenTan viqnebi albaT.
Sen gixaroda Seni arseba. Sen is gegona Seni erTguli vinc mogitanda Tavis siyvaruls martSi maneTad nayid iebad (ki, zRvac amayobs Tavis xmauriT, magram icode, zRva sxva aris da zRvas yvelaferi epatieba).
Cemi fiqrebi ubralo gogos raRac ucnaur SuqiT gmosavdnen da maRonebda Zalian xSirad, rac ar vicodi me Sens Sesaxeb, rac Sen akeTe CemTan mosvlamde.
ratom ggonia, rom me saTqmeli dagigviane?! Sen ver mimixvdi, Cemi saTqmeli adreve giTxar da ver amCnevdi, rom me Sengan velodi pasuxs, rom me qceuli viyavi kiTxvad... me siyvaruli vici, rac aris, magram ar vici Sen rogor giTxra! da Tu qamandi gamovde sityvas, moval moval da uceb yvelafers getyvi?- ara! ar aris is siyvaruli, rasac saerTod mas uwodeben, is aris bevrad imaze meti!..
me var mdinare!
yvela mdinare mudam meore mdinares eZebs, meores eZebs, rom SeuerTdes da mere erTad gavidnen zRvebze, ar SeiZleba mTeli cxovreba geZinos martos, amitom mudam viRacas eZeb da es Zieba gtanjavs da garTobs.
Zalian didi maqvs siyvaruli da moTmineba maqvs ufro didi, dRes Cemi awmyo aris warsuli, romelic lamazad iniRbavs Tavs da romelic sadRac uCemod midis, me gadmovedi im bilikidan da axla sul sxva bilikze vdgebi, dRes Cveni gzebi ise gaiyo, viT nataxtarTan iyofa gzebi.
me kargad vici, vici Tu vxvdebi, rom Sen aRarsad ar melodebi, albaT es aris imis mizezi, rom umizezod xSirad vRondebi... ganmeordeba es yvelaferi, oRond Cven aRar ganvmeordebiT.
Sen gafrindebi, Sen damSordebi, axla Sen CemTvis ara gcalia, gTxov mapatio, gTxov mapatio, rom me miyvardi da rom miyvarxar axlac Zalian!
albaT sjobia nanatri baRi kacma ixilo mxolod garedan da gulgriloba, Seni Tu Tvisi, avi ZaRliviT ebas karebTan. Robis garedan hkrefde nayofebs da dasaxevi gxa gqondes ukan, anda Zevidan Wvretde yvelafers, viT magidaze gadaSlil rukas. sjobia kacma nanatri baRi mudam ixilo mxolod garedan da sakuTari civi goneba erTgul ZaRliviT gebas karebTan, magram pirvelad roca Sevedi, me ver vxvdebodi am sibrZnes maSin, me arc dResa maqvs civi goneba da kvlav Tamamad Sevdivar baRSi;
gvirilebs vkrefdi im dRes ferdobze, uceb gawvimda da daiquxa, sadRacas muxas daeca mexi. SeSinebuli gamoviqeci da me rom unda momeZRvna SenTvis, im yvavils albaT davadgi fexi!..
morCa! daeSva scenaze farda, Tovlma waSala suyvela kvali... minda gavigo xval ra iqneba, axla vmkiTxaob: neta ras niSnavs gulis biWi da aguris qali?
pasuxisaTvis nu gairjebi, me araferi mikiTxavs SenTvis. albaT arsebobs iseTi raRac, sakuTar Tavsac verasdros etyvi. yvela pasuxi bolos da bolos unda iseve gadiqces iseve kiTxvad... me daviRale amdeni ZebniT da Zlivs vipove saWiro sityva!..
asea Turme, Tu ram gawuxebs, roca iqneba, unda dajde da vinmes yvelaze Zvirfass miswero...
ara! Secdoma ar meordeba! Tu meordeba-sabediswerod!
ara! verasdros ver daviviwyeb me im SeTxvevebs da im Secdomebs. me isev minda SenTan viyo da Sen Cemi ise ise gesmodes, magram me vici, Cemo Zvirfaso, rom es arasdros ganmeordeba, ver davibruneb warsuls verasdros da fifqsac fifqi manamde hqvia, sanam miwaze daecemodes.
... ar SegiZlia Sen araferi, Sen daviwyebac ar SegiZlia, Tumc axla albaT arafers dardob, me davdiodi Zalian Cqara, nabijs verafriT miwyobdi kargo! ukve dasrulda Cveni TamaSi, qveynad yvelafers hqonia bolo, Cven araferi gvqonda saerTo da esa gvqonda saerTo mxolod!
me Sens Sesaxeb meti vici, Cemo Zvirfaso, vidre Sen ici sakuTari Tavis Sesaxeb. me aRar moval SenTan arasdros da Tmebze TiTebs aRar Segaxeb. sulac ar minda viyo erT-erTi da sasaciloc ar minda viyo, me davibeni axla Zalian da minda mxolod erTi ram gkiTxo, magram ar gkiTxav, ra saWiroa Seni pasuxi zepirad vici – mxrebs aiCeCav, warbebs azidav da mere bavSviviT daiwyeb sicils.
Sen Seicvale.
mec Sevicvale.
sxva yvelaferi am qveyanaze rogoric iyo Cvens gamocvlamde isev isea.
bolo dros bevri saqme gagiCnda da saidumloc gagiCnda bevri. me SenTvis ise zedmeti gavxdi, rogorc damwvari asanTis Reri.
Sen axla civi marmarilo xar, me ki minda rom eg marmarilo maZebninebdes dakargul siTbos da Tu vipovi odesme mainc, ise gamaTbos da momeferos, arc damikargavs arasdros TiTqos, magram es axla aris zRapari “iyo da ara iyo ras” masgavsi da Tumca zRapris mjerodes minda, me bavSvi ukve ara var axla da me zRaprebis asaksac gavcdi.
Zalian bevri gagiCnda saqme da megobaric gagiCnda bevri. me SenTvis ise zedmeti gavxdi, rogorc asanTis damwvari Reri.
Sen Seyvareba Tavisa ici, Sen siyvaruli ar ici mxolod... da Tumca axla im siyvaruliT, im mogonebiT vcocxlob da vcxovrob, me vxvdebi ukve Zalian kargad, rom Sen arasdros ar gyvarebivar, me gWirdebodi mxolod da mxolod.
Sen gafrindebi da gadalaxav usazRvroebis suyvela sazRvars, xelSi aiReb mzeris isrebs da daemsgavsebi mere moisars, unda moisxa Sen angelozis msubuqi frTebi da mere yvelas madli moisxa.
veRar gagdevne Cemi fiqridan, ar vici axla ra unda gTxovo... Sen maSin iyav ufro Zvirfasi, roca Zalian Sori iyavi da ocnebebSi mxvdebodi mxolod...
marto var Sua okeaneSi,
sadRac Zalian Sors darCa axla Cemi keTili imedis koncxi.
me Sen maSinac memaxsovrebi Sens xsovnaSi rom aRar viqnebi da dagiviwyeb, ros gayuCdeba yvela tkivili sulis da xorcis.
Cvens Soris Cadga usasruloba (manZiliT rodi gaizomeba an siSore da an siaxlove), ver migatoveb me Sen verasdros, Tu SegiZlia Sen mimatove! romc wamovide am wuTSi Sensken, romc daviviwyo warsuli wamiT, gzas gadamiWris Sumeri kata, yvela kataze didi da Savi! da aRmoCndeba esec amao, me ver vipovni sasurvel ferebs... barem gadavdgaT TiTo nabijic da me netaSi dagaxrCob mere.
me sxvaTaSoris gaviare Sens cxovrebaSi. Sen gamayole iseTi mzera, rom me mTeli xmiT msurda meyvira:
-ra dagemarTa!
-vera mcnob?
-me var!
me daviRale, me aRar ZalmiZs aRaraferi, veRar verevi sakuTar fiqrebs...
xval Seicvleba suyvelaferi, xval sul axali ram daiwyeba, Tumca ar vici, xval ra iqneba, xval araferi ar moxdes iqneb?
me daviRale, dro aris Zilis. albaT mdinarec iZinebs wamiT, rom daiviqyos mTeli dRis daRla... iqneb sizmarSi mainc Semomxvde, Tumca me vici, rom araferi damesizmreba, ver daviZineb ubralod albaT.
ukve Tendeba.
Tendeba ukve, rame tyvesaviT nebdeba dilas. wvimis wveTebi, rogorc cremlebi dahkidebia balaxs da minas.
me daviRale, me aRar ZalmiZs aRarc Txovna da aRarc moTxovna, me uSenoba Zalian miWirs...(gareT patara alublis totze sul paatara Semojda Citi).
me menatrebi, rogorc bavSvoba (me aRarasdros viqnebi bavSvi). me mainc mjera, Sen moxval CemTan, magram me aRar dagxvdebi saxlSi!
Tumc yvelaferi ganvsazRvre TiTqos, xval ra iqneba mainc ar vici, iqneba xvale Cemi cxovreba sul sxvanairad unda aewyos, ueWveli ki is aris mxolod, rom yvelaferi aris saeWvo.
me var mdinare!
yvela mdinare mudam meore mdinares eZebs, meores eZebs, rom SeuerTdes da mere erTad gavidnen zRvebze, ar SeiZleba, ar SeiZleba mTeli sicocxle geZinos martos, amitom mudam viRacas eZeb, mudam vinmesTan Sexvedras natrob (dRemde amis Tqmas ver vaxerxebdi, dRes ki frCxilebSi mogwero unda: visac eZebdi, is ar aRmovCndi, arc Sen yofilxar, me vinca msurda).
Sen axla albaT tirifTanzixar da viRac biWi siyvaruls gixsnis, SenTvis xom mudam sulerTi iyo suyvela sityva-Cemi Tu sxvisi.
Sen axla albaT sul sxvasTan zixar da araferi ar gaxsovs Cemi: me Sens xsovnaSi male gavqrebi, viT Ria zRvaSi Tvals da xels Sua hqreba portidan gasuli gemi!
Sen ar gegonos, rames viTxovde, an gamomqondes me ganaCeni. arc siaxlove, arc sinanuli, arc dabruneba, arc aRsareba, me araferi ar minda Seni.
ver amixsnia es gaoreba, me axla ukve sxvaca var TiTqos, CemSi Camjdara ori arseba, orive, orive Tavis simarTles icavs, kacis cremliviT tkbil-mware Rvinos orive Tvalis doqidan misxams.
Sen ra Rirsi xar am werilisa, magram me mainc mogwere igi, me araferi ar meguleba Seni metyveli Tvalebis iqiT: mgoni viRacam CarTo radio,-Cemsken moiwevs beberi grigi,... iqneb werili arc Rirs amdenad, magram Sen mainc gaxseni igi. me araferi ar meguleba mag mSvenieri Tvalebis iqiT!...
es aris albaT ukanaskneli, me aRarasdros mogwer baraTebs, dResac arafers getyodi, magram, mgoni simTvrale malaparakebs.
me veli werils, me veli werils, radganac rames elodo unda, es iyos Tundac mxolod salami, es iyos sufTa furceli Tundac!
P.S. Sen ar gegonos Cemi werili an kurTxeva da an anaTema, arc Tavs vimarTleb, mxolod mtyuani mohyveba xolme Tavis marTlebas. me Sen gigzavni axla am werils Cemi fiqriT da tkiviliT savses, ase Tavdeba yvela werili, da es werilic gaTavdes ase.
me veli pasuxs, me veli pasuxs, radgan sxvas ukve arafers veli, TviTon ar vici, Cemi werili rad gamovida aseTi grZeli...
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