SHEXVEDRA.........

diliT rogorc yovelTvis 12ze avdeqi. davureke da bolojer Shexvedra vTxove es Chveva isedac mqonda adgomisTanave mas vurekavdi. mTeli dge vnerviulobdi. vackobdi gegmebs ra unda meTqva misTvis. rogorc iqna daniShnuli dro dadga manaqana Chveul adgilas idga. Chavjeqi xma ar amomigia manqana daqoqa da gzas gauyva. xma arc erTs ar amogvigia mxolod vgrdznobdi pirvelad cxovrebaShi nerviulobda. manqanis saches magra ucherda. vxvdebodi rogor cdliobda mTeli Tavisi nerviuloba sacheze gadaetana ar miyurebda mxolod Tvals aparebda Chemsken. Shemdeg rogorc iqna mikTxa saiT cavideTo? me vTxove ukan camiyvaneTqo manqana moatriala da sarajiSvilis kuTxesTan gaaChera iq Chemi sayvareli mesemiChke dgas gadasvla davapiree xeli Chamchida gavxede. mis TvalebShi pirvelad davinaxe ragac bavShuri gul ubryvilo - ase dZlier gatkine guli mkiTxa, me pasuxi ar gamicia iman kide Chemi xeli aigo da tuChebTan miitana akoca da mere Chem tuChs miado. manqanidan gadmovedi cvimda da mivxvdi yvelaferi damTavrda. Tumca me es isedac vicodi mzesumzira viyide da gzas gavuyevi Tavisuflebis moednisken, vcdilobdi TiToeuli nabijisTvis gametanebina es tkivili verafris tqma ver ShevdZeli arada ramdeni rame mindoda meTqva. saxlShi davbrundi verafriT davidZine. mTel Chems samos misi sunamos surneli asdioda am sunze maxsendeboda yvelaferi Tan mixaroda yvelaferi ese lamazad ro damTavrda Tan mtkioda es tkbili camebi ro agar ganmeordeboda da exlac roca misi sunamos surnels vogrdZonb guli dZalin mtkiva T umca es ar aris mtanjveli tkivili es ubralod carsulis monatrebaa:(.... * * * mzad iyo daereka da teleponshi eyvira: miyvarxar miyvarxaro,magram... magram ar dareka, sacolze dacema da tirili gadatyvita,ise tirili rogorc guli tiris. tvalebi daxucha da tiroda, gverdit me viyavi, magram is marto iyo, rogorc oboli patara bavshvi, itxovda sitbos, moperebas itxovda... videki gverdit da vuyurebdi, me mastan viyavi, magram is ara, tiroda da tirilshi ragacas poulobda. laparaks itxovda shenze laparaks, rom shentan yopiliyo, is shentan iyo,shen ara... is chemi megobari iyo, da guli mtkioda... * * * Werili romelsac adresati verasdros naxavs:( )

exla sanapiros chamovuyevi...shenze vpiqrob..turme vtiri...me ki verc vamchnev... tumca ra gasakviria.. me xom sul vtiri... cremlebi tavisit mogoravs da imedi aqvs rom shenamde moagwevs..rogooor?... tundac wvimis saxit...me gamudmebit vpiqrob..sul tvini mechyliteba..nutu shemidzlia me am ususur arsebas, iseti rame gavaketo, rom Segiyvarde .. me davdivar....sul pexit davdivar...netav ratom?!albat shen gedzeb...albat chemshi is pawawina naperwkali,romelic dzlivsga bjutavs...mainc arsebobs da gagvivebas elodeba..magram echvi mepareba es naperwkali rodesme tundac pawawina koconad dagaiqces...
bnela... xalxi aqaiq dabodialobs...albat isinic chemnairi gijebi arian...yvela bichis danaxvaze guli toto bartyivit mixtis...yvela shen mgonixar....mgoni gavreke...tumca amas velodi kidec...ert bichs mxarze xeli davade,rom Shemomxeda da chemi sheshlili saxe da cremlebit savse tvalebi dainaxa ukanmouxedavad gaiqca...albat shenc ese moiqceodi....vis rashi vchirdebi?!...mitumetes shen...gamotayvanebuli sipatit...tirilisgan chacvenili..araprismtqmeli da sisxliani tvalebit?!...uchmelobisgan chamomxmari,chonchxad qceuli sxeulit?!...me xom erti araraoba var...romelic mochvenebasavit dadis da mxolod ert ragacaze piqribs...
uceb mtkvars gadavxede...titqos isic dardianad,nela,chauwvdomeli sevdit midioda... ise modioda titqos ezareba da adzalebeno...magram mtkvarsac ragac acocxlebda chemsavit...isic vigacistvis cocxlobda...uceb gavcherdi mtkvarshi sheni saxe ashkarad chanda...aseti realuri mochveneba arasdros ar minaxavs...chemi sevdit savse guli gabrwyinda ...me shentan wamovedi...gashlili xelebit wamovedi da chagexute...
dila gatenda...es sevdiani dila iyo...magram tavisupali,radgan am dedamiwas erti araraoba gamoaklda...
wamyvanebi damwuxrebuli saxeebit acxadebdnen mtkvarshi damxrchvali gogos shesaxeb...dedachemi gatishuli egdo savardzelshi da tvalebit chers mishtereboda...
shen pexshishvela gamotantaldi..tvalebi moipshvnite..daamtqnare...pulti xelshi aige da televizori charte..shentvitonac gagikvirda eseti rame ratom gaakete...arasdros gainteresebda qveyanashi momxdari ambebi...exla ki didi interesit daachire sheni patara titebi pults da charte...iqidan me gigimodi...sevdiani tvalebit giyurebdi...korespodentma kidev ertxel gamoacxada chemi saxeli da gvari...shen pulti xelshi gagisheshda da modzraobis unari dakarge...
exla ki gxedav chems saplavze xelebshi tavcharguls 15 witeli vardi gidevs kaltashi....sheni udzirod lamazi tvalebidan ki gamalebit ecemian cremlebi chems gayinul gulze......... * * * 30 weli, 30 mesiji
wvimda, civi Rame iyo, magram biWi ar imCnevda da miabijebda... albaT, imitom, rom Zalian undoda im dabadebis dReze misvla. rogorc iqna, miaRwia saxlamde. gaixsena sarTuli da Cabnelebul kibeebs auyva. zustad icoda, iq ra situacia da ra xalxi daxvdeboda _ bevri ucnobi biWi ramdenime Zmakaci da uamravi nacnobi gogo. man isic icoda, rom aucileblad iCxubebda.... mokled, biWma TiTqmis yvelaferi icoda. rogorc iqna, miaRwia nacnob karamde da zari dareka. Signidan maRali musikis xma gamodioda. kari lamazma gogom gaaRo, swored iman, biWs rom moswonda:

_ gio moxvedi? sad iyavi amden xans? _ RimiliT hkiTxa gogom da Tan gadakocna.

_ ra vici, niin, megobrebTan viyavi da... gilocav dab dRes! _ es Tqva da Tan simwriT naSovni puliT nayidi Zviriani sunamo misca.

_ thnx... Semo da gaerTe... xalxs gagacnob... _ gogo ver xvdeboda, rom am xalxs gio ar moewoneboda.

giom xalxi gaicno da daleva daiwyo. saerTod, sma uyvarda. gadawyvetileba miiRo, ninisTvis siyvaruli aexsna. dauZaxa da gverdze oTaxSi gayola sTxova. ninic, ra sakvirvelia, daTanxmda. giom Sexeda ninis da Zlierad SeigrZno siyvaruli.

_ nin, albaT, xvdebi, risi Tqmac minda... mokled, me Sen... Zalian didi xania... miyvarxar. da ravi, danarCeni Sen unda gadawyvito... _ arada, zustad icoda, rom ninic giJdeboda masze.

_ meec, _ RimiliT uTxra ninim da akoca. es giosTvis ubednieresi wamebi iyo.

did oTaxSi gavidnen. ninim bolo xmaze iyvira _ me da gio ukve erTad varTo.. 2 wuTSi viRac usiamovno tipebma dauZaxes biWs da padiezdSi Caiyvanes. uTxres, es Cveni ubania da nini Cvens Zmakacs uyvarso. gio gaocda. yvelanair Cxubs eloda aseTis garda... biWs Tavis Tavis imedi arasodes ar hqonda.. amitom Tavisi Zveli biWi Zmakacebis saxelebis CamoTvlas mohyva. roca mixvda, rom es tipebi mis Zmakacebs ver itandnen, ukve gviani iyo. axla mxolod Tavisi ubeduri drinis imedze iyo.. laparak-laparakSi daartyes. amanac amoiRo erTguli drini... magram jobda, ar amoeRo. 1 kaci ki daagdo, magram mere is drini TviTonve mowvda mravaljer. ai, aq ukve gaTiSa...

roca gamofxizlda, saavadmyofoSi aRmoCnda. mis garSemo uamravi adamiani fusfusebda... axloblebi da a.S... yvelaze metad es ar undoda, uamravi axlobeli Tavs dastrialebda da moTqvamda, TiTqos cocxali aRar yofiliyo.... es xalxi ver xvdeboda, rom gios martooba Wirdeboda... magram mTavari saSineleba aq iwyeboda, anu mSoblebi... magram ras izamda, unda dalaparakeboda... da ai, daiwyo:

_ gio, Svilo, xom gTxove, ar ginda es Cxubebi-Tqo. xom xedav, ra moaqvs Cxuubs? _ gio xvdeboda, rom es sityvebi marTla mamamisis gulidan modioda, magram veRarafers Secvlida.

_ gio, _ qviTiniT daiwyo dedamisma, _ ukeT xaar?

giomac wesieri biWis saxiT Sexeda da uTxra, rom es SemTxveviToba iyo da meti aRar gameordeboda... saavadmyofoSi 6-ma dRem gaiara... am 6 dRis ganmavlobaSi ninisgan zustad 30 msj miiRo... gadawyvita, ninis gamogzavnili msjebi Seenaxa... 6 dRis mere gamoweres... isic pirveli ninisTan wavida... isev yvelaferi tkioda, magram axla es yvelaze naklebad anaRvlebda. avida ninisTan saxlSi. iq nini da misi erTi daqali daxvda. Camojda da daiwyo laparaki. Zalian ki ar undoda am gogosTan laparaki, magram ras izamda... gios fuli hqonda, amitom gadawyvita, Zmakacebi saqeifod daepatiJebina... ninisgan pirdapir restoranSi wavida... Zmakacebi ukve iq daxvdnen, magram raRac saqeifod ganwyobilebs ar hgavdnen. yvelas iaraRi edo da kasteti ekeTa. mokled, restoranTan mTeli jari daxvda. roca ikiTxa, ra xdeboda, upasuxes: ra dros qeifia, wavediT, vinc gcema, isini vnaxoT, dedas movu...avTo. mokled, gaaCeres taqsebi da wavidnen im ubanSi. 40ni mainc iqnebodnen, ikiTxes, es ubani vis abariao. moiyvanes viRac tipi, imanac uTxra, ki Cemma Zmakacebma cemes eso... gamoiyvana is tipebi, dabadebis dReze ro iyvnen. giom rogorc ki dainaxa, mivarda da daartya... aiwia Cxubi. ai, aq naRdad ver mixvdebodi, vin vis urtyamda... sabolood, 10 tyvia gavarda da yvela gios Zmakaci uvnebeli wamovida iqedan... gio Zmakacebs daemSvidoba da saxlSi avida... yvelaferi ekida ninis garda...

ninis da gios urTierToba Cveulebrivad gagrZelda... mxolod erTi Tvis Semdeg moxda raRac... wvimiani da sevdiani saRamo iyo... gio pufze iwva da musikas usmenda... am dros telefonma dareka... giom aiRo:

_ alo.
_ gio, nini var, ras Svebii? _ arc ise mxiaruli xmiT uTxra ninim.
_ ravi, musikas vusmen, u?
_ ravi, raRacaze minda SenTan laparaki...
_ ra iyo, ra seriozuli xar? _ siciliT uTxra giom, ver xvdeboda, win ra eloda, _ gismen!
_ gioooo... mokled, Sen Cemze 2 wliT patara xar da albaT, amitom ver gavugeT erTmaneTs... me, ravi, dz miyvardi... mara, ravi, grZnoba gamiqra... ar minda, ro guli gatkino... mara jobia, davSordeT... swored amis eSinoda gios:(
_ ravi, me Sen gagige... albaT, Sen ver gamige... mara, araa problema pk... mee... me yovelTvis Zalian meyvarebi...

telefoni dakida da tirili daiwyo... ar undoda, ubralod Tavi ver Seikava... mas xom nini marTla Zalian uyvarda... am ambis Semdeg 1 kvira saxlidan ver gamodioda... ninisTan ar ulaparakia...

1 TveSi axali gogo gaicno da egona, rom Seuyvarda... Tumca es ase ar iyo... im gogos male daSorda... imis mere aravin ar yvarebia da mxolod ninize ocnebobda... Tumca am ocnebas axdena ar ewera... gios cxovreba Cveulebrivad warimarTa... arc mdidari iyo da arc uWirda... nini ki 30 wlis asakSic uyvarda... mokled, nini mis megobrad darCa...
gavida uamravi weli. gio ninize giJdeboda... erT dRes yvelam gaigo, rom gio me-13 sarTulidan gadaxta... gadaxtomamde ninis is mesjebi gaugzavna, rac saavadmyofoSi yofnisas miiRo. veravin mixvda, ratom moikla Tavi giom, veravin ninis garda... * * * cremli N...

ar vici albat ar unda damereka...magram ver movitmine...avkripe nomeri...yoveli zumeris shemdeg gulis cema sichkares umatebda...aigo...rogorc ki chemi xma gaigo uxeshi gaxda:

-alio
-xo
rava xar?
-iavi shen?(rogorc yoveltvis)
-gushin cin gadavcyvite didxans ar damereka mara ver gavqache:)
-imedia shemdegistvis gaqachav
pauza...cremli N1
-ra cudi ragac mitxari?(dzalit sicilit)
-gushin magari gavajaze:)
-da rato ggonia, ro mainteresebs?
pauza cremli N2
-kai pk
-da sad gaajaze?
-pk pk cavedi
-kai pk...
tt,tt,tt...teleponi dakidebas itxovs.cremli N 3,4,5 vegar vitvli.ver vitan bichi ro tiris! * * * alone...
when i think about you and my love for you, I guess i'm foolish couse for me it's forbidden to think about you,..i am not normal since the time,when you wounded my heart,when you charm my heart,it's beating only for you..I'm alone in my life..I have many people around but i need only one,this one is you,only you and nobody others..i've always flying when i thought i'm human..you are human only then if you love somebody..if you can truly love..I LOVE YOU and then I'm human..it's my lot what i have always been a person who must be alone... i'm proud couse i love the man who is so beautiful.. but not from uotside..you are beautiful with your soul I'm contented for our relation..my heart is very sensitive and if we will have as good relation as we have now,my little heart will burst. you have been shineing my way in my life.now my life is very dark but every day when i've seen you,my soul has been brighting,and the end I LOVE YOU BABY ,but i love you alone and it allways will be so..i have not might tu fight of my feeling..i will always love you baby and it will be my my privy during of my life... m.m. * * * Bneli kutxe

sigaretis namcvavi gayinul tovlian micas daeca...cidan pantelebi jer kidev cvioda...bichi miabijebda da tovlze nakvalevs tovebda...mas ar cioda radgan sitbbo gulidan mosdioda...icoda rom male mokvdeboda da undoda sikvdilidtvis gaescro...tviton sikvdili moekla! is piqrobda, rom tu tavs moiklavda manam sanam daavadeba moklavda sikvdils moereoda midioda,k midioda tavis ertadert siyvarultan gogostan romelic mistvis sicocxleze meti iyo... im cutas yvela ekida gogos garda...ekida dzmakacebi, ekida mtrebi, ekida ojaxi... ocnebobda gogostan sherigebaze... undoda kidev chaxuteboda gogos da mastan ertad ebodiala kidev ertxel cxovrebashi...mivida gogos saxltan...dzmakaci ukve iq daxvda... daalages santlebi gulis pormaze... benzini gadaasxes... magram ar gamovida cecxli sxvagan cavida...bichs yvelaperi gaurboda cecxlic ki... am dros bichma dainaxa rogor mirboda gogo misken... da uceb gogo chaexuta... bichi daarcmunda, rom gogoze gijdeboda...bevri iseirnes... bichma gaacila saxlamde... akoca da cavida... midioda sikvdilis dasamarcxeblad... igi yvelapers ertad sheigrdznobda... gogosadmi siyvaruls... mtrebisadmi sidzulvils... da xvdeboda rom cxowrebashi arc ise bevri namdvilii dzmakaci yavda romelic bolomde gverdshi daudgeboda miuxedavad imisa, rom bevri itvleboda mis dzmakacad... fiqrobda tavis daze romelic male daibadeboda... piqrobda tu vin mixedavda mas... vin daicavda nabozari babnikebisgan... vin daacynarebda mis das roca sayvareli bichi acyeninebda... shemdeg tvalcin carmoudga yvelaperi rac gogos exeboda pirveli kocna, pirveli chaxuteba, gogos gimili, da gogos tvalebi! bichi mainc miabijebda... midioda cxovrebis bneli kutxisken... midioda sikvdilisken... padiezdshi shevida... cioda... nagani amoigo... moamzada... da sapetqelze miido... iaragi civi iyo... civi rogorc sikvdili...bichma chaxmaxi gadacia da uceb loyaze cremli chamougorda... yurshi chaesma simgera romelsac is da gogo xshirad usmendnen... iarags xeli dzlierad mouchira ... tavs dzalas atanda, magram ar gamosdioda... chamougorda kidev ramodenime cremli... tavshi yvela tavis dacerili motxroba dautrialda... uceb chaxmaxi isev ukan gadacia iaragi daagdo da gaiqca... mirboda gogos saxlisken mirboda pirdapir... ar anagvlebda aravin... is yvelapers mixvda... is mixvda, rom sikvdili daamarcxa... is mixvda, rom tavis mokvla mxolod danebeba iqneboda... mirboda, mirboda da nakvalevs tovebda tumca am dros nakvalevi mxolod tovlze ki ara mis cxovrebazec rcheboda... tumca vigac am yvelapers ver mixvda da sadgac tovli citeli, muqi citeli sisxlit ichginteboda... cxovreba asetia zogi bnel kutxeshi rcheba, zogi ki axerxebs iqedan gamoswlas... 1. me Sen miyvarxar, ara imitom vin Sen xar, aramed vin var me,roca Sen gverdiT var. . . .
2. arc erTi adamiani ar imsaxurebs cremlebs, xolo vinc imsaxurebs, arasdros agatirebs. Sen. . . .
3. mxolod imitom, rom viRacas ar uyvarxar ise, rogorc Sen ginda ro uyvarde, imas ar niSnavs im adamians mTeli guilT ar uyvarxar.
4. namdvili megobari is aris, romelsac uWiravs Seni xeli da grZnobs Sens guls. . .
5. yvelaze saSineli monatrebaa, iyo mis gverdiT da acnobierebde, rom is arasdros iqneba Seni. . . . .
6. arasdros moiSalo saxeze Rimili, maSinac ki, rodesac sevdian ganwyobaze xar. viRacas Seileba Seni Rimili Seuyvardes. . . .
7. Seileba am samyaroSi mxolod adamiani xar, magram viRacisTvis mTeli samyaro xar. . .
8. ar fanto dro im adamianze, romelic ar iscrafvis imisken, rom dro SenTan erTad ataros. . . .
9. Seileba RmerTs surs rom vxvdebodeT uvargis adamianebs manam, sanam SevxvdebiT im erTaderTs . . . imitom rom roca es moxdeba, Cven madlieri viyoT. . . .
10. nu tiri imitom, rom es damTavrda, gaiRime imitom rom es iyo . .
11. yovelTvis moiZebnebian isini, vinc tkivils mogayeneben, magram ar unda dakargo rwmena adamianebis mimarT, ubralod cota frTxilad iyavi. . .
12. gaxdi ukeTesi da Senve mixvdi Tu vin xar, sanam Sexvdebi axal adamians im imediT, rom is Sen gagigebs, Segicnobs . . .
13. nu gamoavlen esoden Zalisxmevas, yvelaferi saukeTeso moulodnelad xdeba . . . . . markesis 13 praza cxovrebis shesaxeb....